Self Worth

Self acceptance, acceptance of one's self including all the less than perfect parts and the less than 'normal' parts, is not the same as self worth. I have already pointed out how a fact is different than a fact's worth, different than the personal valuation of a fact that is gained on one's interior through experience. One can accept another person or themselves as they are, not expect them to change, be different, be 'better', be more 'normal', than they are; but this is not the same thing as to value that person, to find worth in that person, or even to find certain worth in that person, or to value that person in a certain manner.

In a very real sense it is an obvious point, but today I found myself, actually telling myself in defense against another (who also felt I offended them), "I have worth, I have value; what I think, what I believe, what I feel, and my opinion, even if no one knows them, matter." And as I said these things to myself I realized I meant these words for myself and not for the other person, I meant to speak the truth and encourage myself, not to convince any other person.

I derive so much meaning from adequately representing and symbolizing my experience, to my self and when communicating with another, I think it is sometimes difficult for me when it seems no one can or will listen, seems no one around who can or will understand. It is at these times I find myself reminding myself I have worth, worth to myself, though no one else may see it, I, from my interior experience, still know.