1) I often want to help my wife with symbols from my own interior, but these are so often symbols she doesn’t understand, and sometimes so unhelpful they create obstacles for her instead.
2) I sometimes get so focused on the train of my interior thoughts (what I think, feel, believe and opine), so excited about what is happening between my ears, that I do not pay adequate attention to my beloved and what's happening to her and between us ("It's like I have no husband at all!"). on the other hand, this imbalance happens in the other direction as well when I get wonderfully attuned to my wife and what is happening between us, but feel as if I am missing the meaningful interior expression and the interior reflection I need to do in order learn the lessons I need to learn. This intersection requires not only attention to my interior, to my wife and to our relationship, but also to the balance and harmony of these.
3) The place where my interior pattern of meaning and our relationship meaning overlap is not well defined or differentiated (see here and here), and in the compaction of the experience I tend to get my symbols crossed:
-the emotions of love and romance,
-the tumult of sexuality,
-the meaning and significance of interacting with her,
-the spiritually numinous,
-the intellectual awareness of my experience,
All these things get compacted together in the experience, often in different combinations at different times, in this intersection.
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