Love's Interior Meaning

My attempt at experience learning, at attaching the 'right' meaning and significance, won't necessarily result in the same meaning and significance that she attaches to her standards. The goal, my goal, is to find any combination of meaning and significance on my interior that gives me the amount of organization and prioritization that result in her standard being met to her satisfaction, that result in her happiness and pleasure.

This is partly why I don’t believe being uxorious will dissolve my personality and leave me her blind, unthinking automaton. Though I seek her happiness and pleasure and I want to give love to her in symbols and gestures that she understands, and don't want to guess at what symbols would be effective, I still do what I do for my internal reasons and choices, for my interior meaning and significance, not for hers.

I may receive some validation and approval from her as I seek her happiness and pleasure, and so long as these things overlap on my interior compass I'll take as I give, but I will not sell my worldview and personality to attain or do either. Indeed, it is precisely because I am not compromising, and have not compromised, my interior self, and instead I have only become more myself at every interior turn of increasing meaning and significance that I feel so 'destined' to be right where I am in our relationship.